I am alive.

I am currently writing a book called 'Under My Skin' that is about a girl who suffered from an eating disorder, who ended up dying because her so called best friend encouraged her to continue to diet and lose weight and she now haunts this friend. And doesn't even know it.

Its not fully thought out yet but its based on something that's actually happening.

Anyways, so much as happened the past year and I am beyond that now. I still hold grudges, I still am angry at people but through GOD yes, GOD I am learning to heal.

From cutting, from eating disorders, cruel deceiving relationships.

I am learning to forgive.

My friends for the most part have been patient with me which is nice. Now I just need to forgive myself and move on. But when you're in the process of mourning over three dead friends, one that died when I was ten eleven years old, one that took her life last year and the other that took her life almost a week ago, it takes time.

But God will see me through.

=3

I will put up more poems and stuff when I write something thats worth reading.